14 October 2012

On the other side of normal

The way to enlightenment is very frightening. In the pursuit of ultimate truth, one has to face that God is actually EVERYTHING . . . not just the pleasant stuff of hymns and fairy tales. It was my sincere belief, for a long time, that God was a sadistic torturer. I expected him to rip me to shreds and keep me in pain for eternity. I suffered intensely for knowledge of this God . . . experience of this God. I wanted to understand completely the nature of this God. In the end, I see that this God is as tired and as shell-shocked as I am . . . in fact, this God is intimately connected to me, and is everything that I also am. This God has been unhappy and lonely and desperate. This God has been abused and neglected. This God is a survivor. This God refuses to give up. This God chooses to see the best he can in every situation, forgives the gravest of insults and faults, and loves all of creation as if everything in the Universe was his very own child. It is hard to accept a child who is a deviant or a mass murderer, and yet our environment is full of these. Our God can see himself in these people, and will love and forgive all. For the strict Christians among us, the only way to describe this kind of love is to imagine that Satan is actually your own child . . . a child that you lovingly wished for and planned to create. A child that was a true joy when he arrived, the fulfillment of all your desires. A child that you have hope for . . . one that you continually pray for and help as much as you can. Our God loves Satan . . . despite what is portrayed in the Bible or among many “hellfire and brimstone” preachers. I have direct experience of this undying and overwhelming love. I know it, because I experience it, every minute of every day. I have reached the enlightenment that I have sought for so long. I have it, and I would like to help others achieve it.
    But, you must be warned. It is a treacherous, frightening desire to wish for God and God alone. There is no other purpose to life, and yet we fill our time with so many false pursuits. We wish to avoid the pain of this journey, and so wish for the world to fulfill us with accolades and possessions. I approached life in this way for many, many years. We fool ourselves into thinking that this is correct living, simply because everyone does it. A deeper look into our true being will show clearly that grasping for worldly rewards is never fulfilling. Satan teases us with false promises. The only recourse is to shed the need for worldly happiness and accept the suffering that comes with defeat. Satan has no hold over an empty vessel. If you cannot be swayed, you can find that your are truthfully saved.
    Strict Christians believe that Jesus Christ is the only way to this end. But, every culture on Earth has within its structure a valid path to salvation. A broader view will show that God does not neglect anybody, no matter what religion or neighborhood. Jesus Christ promised to “come again.” He also chastised us for not recognizing him when he came as Elijah. There is no questioning this promise from him. The Christ is always here, one way or another. The Muslims find him in Mohammed. The Buddhists find him in Gautama Buddha. The Zoarastrians find him in Zarathustra. The Hindus find him in Krishna and other manifestations of the Highest of the High. For Jews, regardless of conventional thought that they do not embrace a messiah, the life of Abraham in their history represents a compassionate father and teacher. Moses was also a highly revered teacher to the Jews and the legacy of the Old Testament prophesies provides a path to them through the Ten Commandments, no matter what. Jesus Christ is a culmination of all expectations for Jews and Christians alike, but doubt and uncertainty is always present in the mind, for everyone until experience.
    Meher Baba was born in 1894. To many worldwide, he is the descent of the Messiah, once again. There is no reason to fight over this claim. As Meher Baba himself conveyed, and I am paraphrasing, ‘Everyone is an atheist until he or she has direct experience of the Infinite One.’ There’s nothing to fight about. There’s no profit in religions crusading to make converts. There is only ONE reality on this subject, and that is TOLERANCE.
    To me, it all is important, and I study the stories, myths, biographies, and scriptures of all that I am capable of understanding. Certain subjects in the study of spiritual history are lost to me because of language barriers. But, I do my best to ask the questions that burn within me whenever I am given a chance. A Muslim friend of mine suggested a website on religious tolerance to me. I promptly told him that my greatest challenge with Islam was the lack of emphasis on monogamy. To my mind, we have moved ahead in social understanding and the same Noah from his mythology is the teacher from mine. We are only going to succeed over lust if we are committed to partnerships built on trust and loving kindness. This is why, even though many religions today deny homosexuals the right to marry, I am a fierce advocate for this to change. Our dear friends everywhere deserve to be held in their communities with respect and dignity. When homosexuals are advanced within their homes and neighborhoods by the challenges they accept in loving monogamous union, they will find healthy environments in which to live and raise families. They will be rewarded with friendly neighbors and welcoming churches. The Bible vilifies homosexuality in many places, especially in older books in the history of religious thought. But, in Matthew, one of the Gospels of the New Testament, Jesus assures his apostles that, and I’m paraphrasing, ‘it will go easier on Sodom and Gomorrah on the day of judgment than it will on a town that does not welcome you.’ Sodom and Gomorrah were Old Testament cities that fell because of sinful living, and many have interpreted this to mean that homosexual sex was the cause of their destruction. But, we are told over and over that promiscuity and adultery and covetousness are all sinful, and there is no border between the homosexual community and the heterosexual lifestyle when it comes to these issues. The stamp of approval that society gives to a heterosexual marriage does not ensure that the sins of lust will be eradicated within that home. We see evidence of this all the time.
    A marriage for the public face of a narrow minded neighborhood does not equate with a moral certainty. I feel we need to embrace each other in wholeness and fair treatment. That includes the women of every nation. It is not fair to be held as a third or fourth wife to a domineering individual. Fair treatment for both sexes is the only moral path. In true monogamy and true spiritual living, both partners work to eliminate selfish behavior and bend to the needs of the other. Our problems with pornography and prostitution and sex trafficking and slavery of all kinds are a result of imbalanced respect for the “other.” I cannot allow myself to participate in these evils. I cannot find happiness in sexual gratification, even in marriage, because the selfishness that arises always kills my spirit. But, I know how the majority of people feel, and loneliness becomes such a miserable state for so many people, that partnership is a requirement. I have tried this path, too. Divorcing from problematic marriages and relationships was my only option.
    These are my concerns for the new life. They are very simple. I feel that acceptance for the “weird kid” in your family or neighborhood will change the world. When we truthfully ‘love our neighbor as ourself’ it is impossible to shun the needs of those around us, no matter how distant. Your neighbor is your fellow Earthling, my friends. Do not allow him or her to live in poverty of hope or hearth ever again.

24 September 2011

systematic abuse

"mental illness" is the scariest thing you can experience, isn't it??? not police brutality. not rape. not stalking by an ex lover. not the separation from your darling child because of retarded accusations and uncaring judgments. but, truthfully, if your "family" member is mentally ill, make sure you persecute that person to the fullest extent of the law, because your life is far more important than hers, isn't it??? make sure you avoid having a real conversation with that person as long as possible, so that you don't know her at all (and never did anyway) and then spread rumors and hearsay among law enforcers who are systematically abusing her with all the power they posses. that's the best way to shut down someone you hate. thanks.

10 June 2011

june 1940 — the filth of desires

One day, Baba called the "five Bangalore boys" and asked each, "What do you want? What do you want to do in life?"
          Raju said, "I want to go into business."
          Kalappa replied, "I want to deal in cooking oil."
          Amdoo said, "I would like to drive a tonga."
          Venkoba Rao said, "I want to be a farmer."
          Krishna alone replied, "I want you, Baba!"


Baba looked at him, gesturing, "I will give you Baba!"


He then informed Venkoba, "Wait for some time before you become an agriculturist."


Baba kept Krishna and Venkoba Rao in Meherabad. He sent the other three boys back home, after making arrangements for them according to their wishes. Baba smilingly remarked to Krishna, "You have fallen into a ditch! Now you will be in trouble."


Papa Jessawala was assigned to escort the masts Phulwala and Ramshish back to their villages and Kalappa, Amdoo and Raju to their homes.


Baba's remark to Krishna proved to have a literal meaning a few days later. All of the waste material from the masts' toilets was dumped into a large pit. One day it rained heavily, and the pit filled with water. Papa Jessawala told Krishna to empty the water from the pit with buckets. While cleaning it, Krishna slipped and fell into the pit. He shouted to Venkoba Rao, who pulled him out. Baba came by and saw Krishna covered with the filth. "Why were you cleaning the pit?" he asked. Krishna said that Papa Jessawala had told him to do it.


Baba became upset with Papa. "Why did you tell him to clean the pit without my permission?" he asked. Subsequently, Baba ordered Krishna to bathe sixteen times! He handed Krishna sixteen small stones, with which to count, so he would not make a mistake. After doing as Baba instructed, Krishna told Baba that his skin felt very tight. Baba went to the women's room and brought him some oil to apply to his body.


Baba asked Krishna, "Did you feel bad while cleaning the pit?" He replied, "No."


Baba spelled out, "You, yourself, are full of unclean matter. Do you realize that? Why do you live in such filth? Don't you feel dirty? Start feeling unclean because of the filth of the desires that cover you from head to toe, and begin to clean them as you have cleaned the pit today."

Lord Meher, 1st. ed., Bhau Kalchuri, Vol. 7, p. 2566.


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02 June 2011

running onward toward victory

Conflict follows me relentlessly, it seems!

Today, I am just alarmed by sad times with friends who choose to insult instead of listen, several hours of really scary weather in my state last night—tornadoes which left several people dead, a missing handbag which holds documents I need really dramatically, ongoing troubles with money that leave me without gas for hot water and heat, and my almost constant concern about relocation to Africa as soon as I can clear up this mess a little bit.

In the midst of the whirlwind, while feathers of care and worry whip and whirl around me, while the tornado of opposition continues to howl, while authority figures who continue to demand respect are silently dismissed from my life, while I mourn my empty home and keep quiet vigil over the spirit of my estranged daughter . . . I am still at peace internally. I don't know how it is happening, truthfully . . . it's a shocking development in my life . . . but my mind is at rest within.

I am not frantic. I am not panicking. I am not regretful. I am not afraid. I am not angry. I am not hurried. I am not desperate. I am not lonely. I am not in any kind of terror. I am not on a hunt to rescue any "lost" ones. I am not battling any confused spirits, nor any of my own confusion. Today, I am just here, in a now that is simply moving through time and space with gentleness and steadfastness. Praise God. Thank you, Jesus. Avatar Meher Baba ki Jai.

So, as the time passes on, and I simply do the next impossible task on my list and keep plodding forward, I can actually sense that there may be a light at the end of this tunnel. My eternal spring of hopefulness has not run dry!!! It never does. But, today, it bubbles and gurgles with fresh, sweet nectar . . . and I look so forward to that first drink on a shady corridor overlooking the courtyard, at my little desk, with my pens and paper, and some fufu waiting to be made with soup. Pray with me, please, that this simple fantasy is not a pipe dream as I pray continually for your happiness, peace, and transcendence.

Shalom.

19 May 2011

selfless devotion

Symbols of the world's religions

               

THE HEART SHOULD BE LINKED WITH GOD

Meher Baba


An easier way to progress on the path and ultimately attain eternal bliss is bhakti yoga. It is an easy method in comparison with karma yoga, but it requires firm determination. There should be only one firm resolve: to attain God, to realize God. Devotions offered with that firm determination will be fruitful. Devotion is not gained by crying out with some selfish motive: "Oh God, give me a wife, give me a son, give me wealth — let honors flow to me!" Such devotion is insipid and dry, and quite empty.

Devotion should be offered with the intense desire to see God — to be one with God. This one-pointed devotion should completely absorb the devotee's mind. During such devotional practice, there should be no thought of one's surroundings, one's relatives or the world at all.

Devotion does not consist in reading holy books all day long or chanting God's name for hours on end. That is not devotion; it is sheer deceit, a show. The heart should be linked with God. Even five minute of real devotion without any other thought, with concentration only on God, is the real thing. This sincere devotion gradually creates the thirst to love God, and eventually it results in merging in the Ocean of love divine. The more deeply you concentrate, the more intense will be your devotion and the speedier the result.

Bhakti yoga especially requires aloofness on the part of the aspirant; it will come naturally in the course of time. As the mind becomes more absorbed in devotion, the more detached it will become from the world and its affairs. This is not the case in karma yoga, where the connection with the world is maintained.

If both bhakti and karma yogas are practiced together, all the better. But it should be in the way which I have described. These two yogas need wholehearted intense longing and selfless devotion to realize God.


LORD MEHER, 1st ed, Vol. 4, p. 1172, Bhau Kalchuri
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09 May 2011

in a past life

A long time ago, I used to work in the publishing industry. As a writer and scholar, and a really bad college student, I had a lot of trouble choosing a career. My other English major friends went into teaching on the college level. I didn't like school enough to continue on for a Master's degree or PhD so that I could be a professor. I didn't like the nasty competitiveness for tenure and I didn't know if I liked teaching all that much, especially to overgrown, overly spoiled punks who spent all their time partying. So, I skipped out of Graduate school and went to work in business. It took a while to figure out that I still loved education, still loved books, and still wanted to be an author myself. Why not "publishing" as a career??

After 10 years in book publishing, I had a baby and ditched that, too. Oh well.